Stress, drama, and uncertainty...

Today I woke up, rolled over, looked at the clock and went back to sleep... A few hours later, I drug my lazy bottom out of bed and convinced Jeff that we needed to go for a run. I am trying to figure out how am I about to go running without eating... so i decided that we (jeff and I needed something to eat) so i mixed up some smoothies, my morning favorite and then we sat down at the computer. Because of course we needed to let it settle before we run off to go get healthy... or something like that. About 45 minutes later, i realize that I've been sitting here way too long and it was indeed time to get off my bottom!
So Jeff and I got up and drove down to the beach, put on our running shoes and started out down the sand. It was pretty wonderful until I realized that it had been way to long since I last ran, or did anything physical for that matter and so, it was a struggle... not that I didn't complete it, however, it was not what I WANTED to do this morning! Additionally, we collected a few shells for my momma, because, well she likes them!
After we got home, showered and had lunch, I again went back to the computer and searched intently for any information I could find on the Wallow Fire. My dad, being the wonderful brave fire fighter he is... is out working in the middle of the forrest, trying very hard to save it from the destructive path of the great beast we now call the Wallow Fire. So I search and search and try to find any new articles on the fire, get my bi-daily update and hunt to see if any news station interviewed my dad so that I can see him. Sick huh?

Well then Jeff and I got motivated and decided that we had some more wedding stuff to accomplish, so we headed out. Picked up the second special order flower girl dress that just came in, stopped by the jewelry store to search our bridal party gifts, and to much dismay, came up mostly empty and unsatisfied. Why on earth is it that difficult to be inspired by something that I really like, but then when I know what I want, why can't I find it??? Sigh.. Maybe I will be able to find something in the next 33 days...
OMG 33 days.... well, let's see what else there is to do... favors, bridal party gifts, finalizing the ceremony, deciding if I want to do a rehearsal dinner, finalizing all the rest of the stuff that I am not sure I want to do or shall I say, want to pay for... I think I'm just trying not to be so darn cheap.
What else do I need to do... oh yeah, there is always work... ugh. I shouldn't remind myself of how much I love that place. Geez, I should stop complaining, I just wish I could win the lottery so I could quit work... some day I guess!